۱۳۸۹ بهمن ۱۴, پنجشنبه




daneshgahe honar,un dokhtare,az in golhayi ke pesara dus daran beshinan chan sa'at negash konan az ruberu,vali man chize digeyi ro mikhassam be nazare shoma va jebheyi ke tashkil dadi  beresunam, quick fast and quick witted...shod!
are, i can impress that way!badam zadam be chaaak!


sandewichi ke badesh khordam, kenare ayne, tamame pose ham
beghadri daghigh shode budam tu riztarin chiza, ke age hezar ta akse mokhtalef ro midadi az adamhaye mokhtalef , migoftam iradeshun,hess, hess!
tu chie ke top marke jazabiat ro nemigereftan!


be inf ek oftadam dune dune bargardam be hameye dusta mail bezanam,
gherie momken nis, hameye pola ro mishe dobare bargardund

shayd ye jame khdeomooni ke hame bashan kheili asuntar bashe, vali bazam rah haye ghiabiyi vojood dare
hameye adamayi ke ruzi be dalili as zman ranjidan.. va kutah nayyumadan

moo ferferi

dobare neveshtim! shod! khale shohre ta ye sa'at badesh ke dashtam ba amoo correcsion mikardam rad mishodo miumad behem hal midad
rasssi,rustie budan behtare ya danny?
daghighan un shimi pas chi?

 man modat zamane be tore mahsusi duri ro mitunam begam pish vaghean sense mikardam,tasir mizashtam,negah haye sharm alood
kheili vaghte ke az ghalam oftade


toro ke midunam az shunza salegi ba har kasi rajebe s** harf mizadi..manam zadam khob! hala meske ba ruykarde jadidi
in mamoriat ro assign karde budi baram!

chan ruze mikhaam nazare ye seri adamo beporsam
hatta ta in had ke yenafar ke babash mitune bilite sinama gir biararo o duse dustame ro impress konam ,in karo vase manam bokone!
things come and go...
soale bozorgi ro az man porsidi!
baavar kon!

negah ham, man vaeghan bazigaram,vagehan man neigam kheili... kheilia migan, man mitunam az suratam, harkataye dasthaam , charkhesham davaranhaam, ba adama, ba negahe adama rabete bargharar konam

to encourage am kardi

in ye keshi bud ke be gahdri daghigh baste shode bud ke

are, bayad ye hamchin shurue digeyi barash ragham zad
va man az hamoon avvalin ruz khodamo amade kardam,
to in ghadar amadegie zehni dari ke sefr koni...
ta be shuruyi ke nadashtim, shuruye eftekhar kardaniyi ke rabeteye ma nadashto belakahre jobran konam!


danny budan behtare ya rustie?..are rustie yekam kar kardann mikhat, mishe vaghean be bulughe rustie resid vali nahaade adam danny bashe
kasi ke har kari ro momken mikone, nofooz dare
ya un kholo cheli ke sadegish adamo majbur mikone be dust dashtanesh?

bad ke start zadi, khob man motaen shodam ke bayad entezare ye hamle dashte basham
mikhassam jashn rah bendazam,midunessam mikhay jashn(jang) rah bendazi

vaghean soale mohemmie
age man vaghean in adamiam ke eddea mikonam,ke eddea mikoni...
pa badihie tu har jami ke basham,(man in chan ruz tu hamchin jamayi nabudam, be zudi misham vali i guess) bayad adamayi bashan ke behem propose konan
adamayi ke davatam konan , be jam hayi ke daghighan baraye khodam ham jalebe
bayad beshe vase jahaye bekhosoosi, vase edama ,donyayi ke aroom aroom dare tahe zehnam shekl migire, rahe khodesho be
jam haye bozorgtar beresune

shayad barmigashtam be zudi be jam hayi az bacheha, unayi ke miran khat mizanan, beshinam paye sohbat, film bebinim, naghd konim, the only people in th e world
k tu in zaman mitune share kone,tasmim nadare ok!
age things khub edame peida kone shayd beshe sandalisho alaki nazash por beshe! manzuram zayel shodaneshe

labkhandam! hamin vague budanesh, encourage konandegish! avaz shode! hamin do ruz,man kheili kheili kheili zud injur chiza ro
yad migiram, un ruhi ke poshteshe ro kamabish mishnasam...asun rahamo be in jur maghuleha baz mikonam

rastesh vase keshundanesh be donyaye majazi kheili zude!

amadas, faghat fahmidam bayad yejaye bekhosoosi az shahr ro peida konam, yek tabloye khas, yek makane khas ke uni ke manzurame ro behet begam
iinke doros mikham mese setare ke hamchin taghyirio dare tu un guruh ijad mikone,vaghean heife ke hamchin forsati ro az das bedi,toro nemigama, mane jaye toro migam(age bae tamame inha hanuz ejaze bedi!,dargiram kamabish) hamchin shahkaret ro ruye man piade koni!
man kheili aaamadam , ras migam!

rest of the calculations, in bud ke ye gapi pish umad,zamani gozash, pas chera to nemiresi?
man mitunam keep going konam ...

ina ye mosh barname bud, yeki az emtehanamo bayad dobare bedam,gheir az un karaye ruye image
tu khune bassse hassam
ye ketabe ke age hamasho bekhunam, mitunam vase shakhaye daneshgah honaro tehrania miz rah bendazam
karayi ke scientista mitunan bokonan vali narmafzaraye tejarie konooni nemitune support kone..yekam ajale has vase pish bordanesh
ruste budan yani por az sarnakh dashtan be har jamyi, ba ye  noghteey shuru e moshtarak


vase un karzaar, man che danny basham che nabasham fondasiune kheili amighi ro daram mikanam!
en'etafhayi ke aval badan bayad ghabulesh kone, bad, un haro present kone...
chizayi ke bargh bezane, ghablan gharizi bud, un salaye pish ro migam, hala na!

be in fek mikardam ke tu javabe in darkhastet: dus daram engahdr adam emtehan karde bashi(basham) ta motmaen bashi ke
man vaghean uniam ke mikkhayy, khob rassesh injuri ke hich vaght tamoom nemishe
hamoon mesdaghe harzegie
miduni chi shod? ruze avval?
hamoon  ke khasi mano dor bezani. karzar rah bendazi facebook chagh shod

man bayad ye maghalaro tamoom mikardam
neshastam ruye ye nimkat, tu khane honarmandan
tanhayi
  boghz..chera, chera man?...
bayad ghabul mikardam
chizi ke tayin mikonio

ghablesh:
kheili saaadas,kheili ajibe,mitune ba cheshmaye baste bashe,
chizie ke shayad ma tahe tahe siahi lashgaresh bashim, darak!!
vaghean in harfayi ke alan injuri zadamo ba dard dashtam be dush mikeshidam
nemitunessam hazmesh konam, vaghty har lahze ke negah mikoni something beautiful ro mibini
chejrui hazer mituni beshi ke avazesh koni,vaghti in hameye unchizie ke mikhassi beshe...
vaghean bikhodo mozheke  ke do ta hapalie isole bemoonim

bekhodam migoftam , man duset daram!az khodam miporsidam, va kheili zarif hes mikardam, ke... shayad , khales nis
man tasmimeto tahsin mikonam.vali alan! na un moghe!
belakhare ruzi mirese ke in do ta negah forsta earze andam kardan vase hamopeida mikonan
ta un moghe moo ferferia faghat dus daran tamasha beshan
ine ke ye ruzhayi ,mitunes inja bashe, ruzhaye zire doorbini, barhao barha az avval sakhtan vaghti text hast! hamchin
servati alan has, vaghty ejbari dar kar nis, vaghty hame chiz az ruye konjkavie,vaghty in hame eddea hast!...




tul keshid,harchiman kamtar afarin goftan ham be tadbireto tu delam bishtaro moshaddad mikardam, be to kamtaro kamtar omidvari dade mishod
ta tu in rahi ke hich aaagheli pa nemizare pa bezari..hamin shod, bade do se ruz un mowje energyt kam kam shuru kard be sazesh kardan

chun vaghean fek mikardam ke man duset daram,
va noghte nazaram in bud ke farghi nemikone chi hasti, ki hasti
mano to could work ...
khob angizam dobare aghayun ro tahte nazar begiram!

vagehan iman daram ke agar in shans be man dade beshe... forsati ke betunam in nimeye penhane nesbatan kam nazar gerefte shodeye
shakhsiatimo behet neshun bedam, kheili kheili bot hayi ke tu dusta o filma dashti ro level bezanam, rad konam!



good question u asked: che ghad mituni jense mokhalefeto tahte tasir gharar bedi?
chizi ke dar morede mu ferferia kashf kardam doroste, una bishtar dus daran baghie negashun konan,
tu behtarin halat owje erza shodaneshun tu dide shodane,hameye deviationhashun mogheyi ke kam miaran ,fase gereftan az khodeshun, sedash boland mishe..
hala kare doros chie?
gheir az ine ke sathesho bebarim balatar? gheri az ine ke in delkhoshi haye kcuhulu kuchulu ab'adeshuno bozorgtar konan?
unjayi ke adama enghadar az admaye khafan naghd shodan ke nachar dnbale rah haye aziz tari miran?

man tu in  chan ruz ba hich ki hij ja naraftam
vali ye afarin mikham behet begam
az vagty be in performance e khodam, be dide shodanam birun az charchube zehnie khodam,
in donyaye majazi,(ke vagehan vaghte pus andakhtaneshe) chardivariyi ke hich kas untori ke hastam mano nemishnase
vahshatnak amalkarda  bala rafte, taze hes mikonam ke cheghad mishe vagte kamtarti sarf kard, kheili kheili efficient tar bud bishtar jeloye ayne vaght  kard!
shayd chanta dallile dige ham dashte in efficeint tar shodane,bade in jaryana, gheseha, in mah hayi ke rad shod,beza man ino bareztarinesh bedunam...
injuri ba khiale rahat tari shab mihkabam


taazasham.. adam kasio ke dus dare bahash har kare pasty ro tu zehnesh anjam namide!

۱۳۸۹ تیر ۱۴, دوشنبه

az in daf'e tup halam bad mishe.. omidvaram paye sohbat mogheyi ke mishinim dark koni ke man kollan az har chizi ke booye gozashte mide halam bad mishe... mkham dava konam az hame chi ham badam miat oghde daram, ehsase sar afkandegi mikonam, halam az zendegim be ham mikhore na rahe pish daram, na rahe pas be khodam fohs midam b ejayi ke hastam be inke in siahchal nemikhat tamoom she asiro zendaniam, mano donbale chizi midovoonanke hich vaght har kari konam, hatta age behtarin adame zamin ham basham,be in migan eshbae mazroof, nemiresam halam az hame chi beham mikhore az inke hatta nemitunam ye zare ba hese khub ba in hes ke mifahmam zendegimo, inke doosesh dashte basham tu hasratesham.. daghe delame oghdam shode halam az zendegim beham mikhore hasrate ye zendegie javoone addi ro khordan bayad tu atishe sham mese parvane besoozam baraye chizi ke hichisho nemifahmammm, hichisho ghabul nadaram mibinam ba kesi ke tarafame, hame chiz ruz be ruz badtar mishe hich vaght hich shansi nadaram baraye khalas shodan misery, filmesho didin? nevisandehe gire ye zane divoone miofte o pahasho mishkune barayeinke uno tark nakone ba hasrat be adam nega mikonam migamn, mikhandan, doos daran, bahashun hastam vali chizi jeloye ino mgire ke tu jameshun basham,man gereftare chizi shodam ke hatta nemitunam sare cherayish bahash harf bezanam gereftare kesi ke ghodrate takhayolesh, ghodrate eradash baraye taghyir dadane zendegi o talabidane un enghadr zaeefe,un tahe tahesh toro mese ye goroohe moorche ba zarre bin mibine,hatta age balbal bezani dasteto nemigire, in sadism e in bimarie! man har chi basham HICHVAGHT in nistam! hatta nemishe bahash harf zad, har juri razish koni un labkhande zeshtesho behet mizane o cheshato mibande , behet bihooshi mizane o toro mikhabune behet mavadi mide bokhori ke hatta nafahmi chi kar mikoni ta mikhay befahmi , hame chiz avaz m ishe, to gij mishi man zendegimo mikham tu in daneshahe koofti ,tu in donyaye kufti, hame ba hame dustan man parvane am asire tare ankabooti shode ke mikhat yek tane baraye baghie adad ro be armaghan biare,magnitude! na quality! baraye zendegie ayandeye khodesh, baraye filmnameye un amrikayiya na moshkelaye mano mibine, va na mikhat mano salemo khubo behtar bokone ayneye heshaye rangvarange masnooyi,saligh eo ghalam, mano mikhat mese kookayine sigar, mikhat baraye vaghtayi ke hoseleye neveshtan dare,hoseleye zendegi dare, mano gir andakhte, na rahe pas daram na rahe pish nemidune chie ke jeloye bazi chiza ro migire khodehso madari midoone vali mano nemibinem nemishnase ruz be ruz ba hamin etefagha chizayi ke hich vaght behesh fek nemikardam bishtar jelom vazeh mishan nemitunam,dige nemibinam,dige nemifahmam,delam shekaste, ghabul nadaram delam ye karte ghermez mikhat un khodesho mikhat , un ye ketabe mohayej mikhat, az hamoon sabkayi ke un nevisandee ke bud 18 hezar safhe , tulanitarin roman ro nevesh delesh mikaht injuri be zendegish eftekhar kone,ma tafahomemoon ro tu zibayi az dast dadim, delesh mikhat chizi bashe ke hichi nabashe chera man , akhe chera man? man ghalat kardam hala arezooye zendegie khodamo mikonam un budan ro enkar mikone khub midune chi be khordam bede ke hata zaboonam baz nashe sorfe, estefragh , kham shodan , nemikham uni basham ke un mikhat nemikham azash badam miat un ensan nis mese shekanje konandehaye jange aragh baraye gereftane akharin eghrar ha un zaboone mano be kesafathaye zendegi baz mikone hes mikonam hesi daram mese in ke baghie omramo bayad ru ye sandali beshinamo form por konam,halam bad mishe vaghty esme eshgh ro miare, hata ye abe khosh ham az galoom payin nemire rooz be rooz in kaboose un, zendegie un mikham beram birun,birun az donyaye siahsefidesh ...
hameye jahatgiriham az mogheyi ke az khab pa mishamdood,hameye roozhaye esti'salam dood, hameye zedegi ro sokkan kardan dood
chejur mitune donbale hes begarde
chejur mitune faghat tamashgar bashe, faghat bazi begire,ine dalil o falsafeyi k eposhte hameye talash hashe? chejur enghad khodkhah bashe
tu ye donyaye por az cherko nekbatim
tamoom she
khodaya man dige nemishnasamesh
khodaya un vazneye sangi dare,delaro sabok sangin mikone
dige hatta be amd nemikhaym ke paki vase ham neshun dade bashe
ganje shode por az harfayi ke tu khalvat zade shodano omidi be avaz kardaneshun nistesh
un hame saro karesh bahmoon peyi ye ke khoshk shode
bekesh birun refighe man
vase chi inja mik kari?
chera das az sare in kachale bakht bargashte bar nemidari?
man ye adamiam ke natunestam kheili az kararo bokonam untor ke bayad bokonam, hoosho hafezam dare bar bade fana mire, paye hamin zendegi ocheshaye nekbatbari ke daram
bayad ye jaye dige zendegio shuru konam
mikham yejayi basham ke hich ki mano nashnase, hichki ro man nashnasam
negahe ashenaye inayi ke inja didam nabashe
moadeleha, shenakhtha, lebasha ,mafhoomha, esteareha, zabanha ,az ghabl baste shode nabashe!
mikham beram yejayi ke kesi vase bala raftan tarsi nadashte bashe
vase bartarkardan tarsi nadashte bashe
dastesh tu daste kesi bashe ke mese khodesh bashe,gharib,sare por arezoo, yaaghi
delam mikhat jayi basham ke raftanha bishtare arzesh ro dashte bashan


delam mikhat jayi basham ke hozore adama tala bashe
mikham adama daghdaghashun baraye ham masire behtar kardaneshun bashe
jayi ke har harkat ya sokootishun baraye ham mani dashte bashe
jayi ke age cheshmato bebandi o gozashtaro faramoosh koni, sokootha o harkat ha barat mani dashte bashe
mikham jayi basham ke adamash tu ye keshvari gheir az khodeshun hozooreshun mani dare
jayi ke hzoore adma tu faza mani peida mikone, tu naghshi ke bayad begiran
jayi beine goftanha o nagoftanha,jayi por az hads haye nazade
jayi ke adamash donbale forsatan
adamash bekhan gushashuno baz konan baraye didane maharatha o surprise shodanha, jayi ke betuni khodeto faramoosh koni dobare
khabhaat dobare por az ma'na barat shan
ye chizi ro ruras bashim, budane man behtare ya nabudanam?
ta vaghty ma mitunim madare zayidane gheseha bashim na faghat ravishun baraye khodemoonjayi tuye anbare kaah , beine hamee chiza, be movazate faramooshi
tajere ettela'ate sangin bashim
maharat mikhata! inke information bekhario befroosh
fekre teami kar kardane in setunamo milarzunei
tamrin mikhata, khialeto baz kon bebin ta che damanehayi mitune roshd peida kone
age security chizie ke teami ham mishe behesh resid chera be fekresh nayoftim chera mizarim az das beran...


ettela'at chera nadare! tu donyayi por az ehsasim shamele hasoodie
faghat cheshmamoono baz konim
age mayike baraye behtar budan talash mikonim
kamtar az minimume motevaseti hastim ke tanhayi khod be khod uno bevojood miavord, kami takun bokhorim, kami tu mohasebatemun tu pishbini kardanha khodemoono tu jadeye digeyi bendazim
gharg shodan ro nashin negah kon
, vaghty azamat manish avaz she kalameha mani peida mikonan, inbar ham in kalameha nistanke mimoonan, chera ?tajrobe behet neshun nemide bayad donbale chize digeyi begardi?
kalame ha faghat baraye lahzeyi zadane jeraghe miano miran,
khial kardane zendegi kojast o marhale be marhale moyassar kardanesh kojas
gheir az ine ke yek sal az zendegit rahi bud baraye moyassar kardane ye zendegie vagheyi?
gheri azine ke hadafe hameye shaba o ruz ha residan be zaboonie ke az dastesh kar bar miat, na ,mibini vagheiat in ,ineke emruz gandidane uno shahedeshim?
forookhtane ettela'at
akhe chera be khodemoon?
chera kenare ham vaynasim o be ham khati nadim baraye inke beforsate hadafi tu jahan beresim
forookhtane ettela'at in maziato dare ke faghat maharate, maharti has ke to peshkelo mituni ebgheimate tala aab koni
kuchktarin idea ha arzeshe vagheyishuno peida mikonan,kenare ham gharar gereftane hamina e ke karaye bozorg mikone,yeki minvise az ye shabake o adamayi ke mikhan behesh nofooz konan, piruz shan, tahdidesh konan, yeki amniatesho check mikone ,information haro migam, yeki manage esh mikone
yeki be in khalgh shodanha manie ke mide
tarafe harchizi mishe raf,vaghty karemoon milestone haro peida kardan bashe, milestone baraye fath kardane ye shabakeye information ,unjas ke badesh khial haye jadid das beyeki kardaneshun meidun beheshun dade mishe, un vaghteke hameye marhalehaye erfaniyi ke ba ham behesh residim, fased nemishan,(shayad in fased shodane ke moghtazaye zamane!) jaye khodeshuno peida mikonan
harkari kardim bazam mikonim, besharte inke ba in az darun eshare kardan motevaghef nashim
be chize digeyi eshare konim
vaghty alan ravayat kardane zendegit shod mese dasstane lost, zendegihaye movazi
hala kari nadare ke be ham eshare kardano yad bedim
filmo akso maghale , in tajrobeye yek salo az che zaviehayi ke mishe did!
matne informationhayi ke beheshun eshare mikonim
az naghshehaye koochiko bozorge teamworking ha, managemanet ha shenakhtaneshun mishe shuru kard, ba esme ettela'at shuru mikonim, fariyate rah khod be khod ba'd ha pish mian
chanalise kardane ke ghesmate dasht kardaneshe
zaboonam ghasere, faghat esme halaro in miziram zendegiyi ke tu rudarvasie kardaneshamo gahi mano be tng miare
fek mikonam be tang avordan arzeshmandtarin ghesmate in zedegi bashe, motmaenam age befahmim jediatesho uno tore digeyi jobranesh mikonim

۱۳۸۹ تیر ۱, سه‌شنبه

واقعا برات خوشحالم..برات آرزو می کردم که این خدایی که من به وجوش توی تو ایمان داشتمو تو اینجا آوردیش... و همونی که تا چندی پیش روزهایی گمش کردی..همونی که همن روز هایی که نمی تونستم نفی کردنش رو از بین بردنش رو با تو نحمل کنم.. از همون روز هایی که حس کردم باهات بیگانه شدم... از روزی که هنوز توی دلمه... که کسی من رو همزاد خودش می دونه و این طور نابود می کنه... واقعا خوشحالم که تو این خدا ررو پیدا گردی می بینیش!.. که لکه ی کسی رو تو ذهنت نداری .. کسی که این قدر از تو می خوات بهش ایمان داشته باشی که همه ی سیاه مشق هایی که نمی خواستم جواب بدم رو تموم کنی... واقعا آرزو می کنم بمانی که مثه من مجبور نیستی از خدایی که داری جلوی دیگری خجالت بکشی... تو تناقض باشی...تنها ...تنها..تنهای تنها نباشی برات آرزوو می کنم که این بلاها سر خدای تو نیان.. خدایی که هر چی باشه نشون دادی که حد اقل به اصلی ترین رکنهاش پایبند موند... که با وجود همه ی کثافت هایی که چشم ها ی کاملا بازش تو دنیا دیدن... ایمان به اون چیزی فراتر از یه مشق ذهنیه..چیزی که لوح سراپا تمیز ذهن تو ..عشق رو می بینه و تو این کارزار گاهی می مونه.. مجبور می شه فراموشش کنه و به خودش بگه هیج کی کامل نیس.. بذا باشه.. یه بار به جای همه ی اون ها چیزی کم نمی کنه.... ذهنی که من از تو دیدم گاهی مملو از توجیح بود ...تو همیشه وقتی سفیدی رو می بینی خدا باهاته ... ذهن من مملو از توجیح شد...کمتر و کمتر با خدای خودم خلوت کردم و موندم و سعی کردم به خودم بقبولونم که می شه چشم های کاملا باز .. دست های سراسر رنگ کرد و باز خدا رو بشه با دیدن کوچکترین روزنه ای ببینه. بهت تبریک می گم که تمومش کردی ...برامون خوشجالم که حد اقل جلوی این فاجعه ی کشتار بشری رو گرفتین بدرود دوست من... چیزی فراتر از احساس اینجا لازمه بدرود...

۱۳۸۹ خرداد ۶, پنجشنبه

ras mige...  otagh anha bud, sagharo  elnaz umade budan khodahafezi konan, az tu chamana barmigashtim rasty safheye pulp fiction jelom baz bud, goftam miduni male kie? ghablesh tu pat o math ke dashtim ba kusha o siavosh zabuun mikhordim o jaleb ine ke una khabar dashtan ke darse bahar tamoom shode, surprise shodam ke nemidunestam
lecture ro tu chamana dadim sangin bud, das gozashtan rush , faghat saghar fahmid ye chizayi ...bahs mikardim , ke elle belle un migof nataayej age chan bodi beshe momkene bar ax bshe, goftam masaleyi peida mikonim ke docharesh nashe ... behesh goftam fek mikonam nemiduni chi migi unam moaddabane javabamo be khodam bar gardund bargashtim tu sakhtemun tu otagh, una raftan, hamasho vase abbasian goftam, ....lecture e man system dynamics ro barash goftam chie chejuri kar mikone, var raftim, charand gof, harf bargardund hamishe haminjurie ba chizaye taze, bahso avaz kard, gof miduni chan vaghte miay inja o hanuz ru hichi sabet fix nakardi, na inayik emigi ye chizi ke na faghat ye hafte o do hate o ye maho chan mah bashe...zad tu khatesh goft in chiza be darde to nemikhore.. sagahro elnaz do ta projeye dige ham daran bahash hamoon chizaye maskhareo routiine  khaste konande kar mikonan unayi ke ye omr miran mishan paperi ke hich ki hata hosele nemikone varagheshu bezane, gof ru atte tion kar kon, yade sobh oftadam midunestim hamamoon ke he pianiste herfeyiye ba yeki az angoshtash ruye sinash az bala be payin zarn miavord ba yeki dige az angoshtash az oayin be bala orib micharkhund... angoshtash, angoshtasho mese ghshoghe chayi khori ham zad gof in zehne to e kejavuni neshat dari energy dari vali fek mikoni ta keye asibi ke dari bekhodet mizani hamishe in juri nis,, salaye digeyi ham has angoshtesho gahrgh kard gof attention ro begir tu neuroscience , chizi ke khodet ye maharaty peida koni, bekhodet komak koni, moshkelate tahsili  hame chi, mitunestam behet beam sare mah bia result bede vali midunam mikham beine bache ha bashi,,,,ye lahze bargh zad, na kar kar kardan tu field di garun, ye fielde noyi sakhtan , barghesh parid, be khkodam fek kardam, man daram khodamo nabud mikonam, bis bar telephone vasate harfam bahas zag khord 11 miss call baz kardam , beresun khodeto cuzine ham mikhastan beran democracy tu ruze rowshan, neshatam be moghe kenareshun hatta zudtar, khoshal budam ke hafashuno majbur nistam gush bedam, hame chi , dobare film, yade khun bazi oftadam, az un filmas ke bishtar az 4-5 bar biamo negash konam, system dynamics, hameye tasvira khalaghiat ha secnas ebadi az kojaye badane ki shuru beshe, in azadie bi hado marzi ke senarioeye in film dasht yade  hameye bado birah hayi oftadam ke abbasuan rajebe in ha gof rajebein field rajebe khalaghiat, rajebe ahamiate tamarkozam.... hame raftan, faghat mano ye zowje javun munde budim, akharin nafar salono tark kardim miram khune, ye kalame ham harf nemizanam bahash, mikhunam, mikhunam chi neveshtam, chi neveshyte, chi kar kardam chi kar karde,,, mikham beresunamet.. soonamet.. soonamet
khate yek cheshma labkhanda maks ha helale lab ha  aramesh, reflex ,bi gharari ha
chizi tahe shenakhtame, ye hese delpazire kashf, ye hese bache munde, chizi kebehesh kamel naresidam chizi ke peidash karda, se char sale pish tu bozorg shodan, mikham onsoresho hazf konam, mikham vazne delpaziresho bendazam ru khate yek, chizi ke gom shodetu un amaghe door... in badane mane saghf

۱۳۸۹ اردیبهشت ۲۷, دوشنبه

bavaram nemishe!! chizzi kee cheshmam daran mibinano bavar nemikonam
az sade shuru shod
eemruz asr
amoom ke az canda bargashte budo tu ashpazkhube mididam
ye frame hayyi az zaman por noor budan  o ye frame hayi tarik mishodan
yani ye lahzehayi mitunestam donya ro bebinam
beine sargije o saboki o sangini bud saram
harfayi ke mizadan kheili khabaludam kard
 raftam birun az ashpazkhune
vaghty bargashtam didam harfashuno nemifahmam
bazvarede yeki az hamoon period haye gijgulim shode bdamo fohsh midadam  man nemitunam be in vaziat edame bedam
saramo seft negah dashtam ta betunam az pasesh bar biam
 khodahafezi o ina
vared mashin ke shodam hanooz saram gij mizad o ye chan ta chizam az dastam oftad zamino ina
vali vaghty tu khiabun ba mashin i ke maman ranandegi mikard harkat mikardam donya ajib shod... vagehan ajib
in tajrobe bar migasht be 4-5 sle pish , hamoon moghehayi ke hale badamo mikhastam handle konam
tasavir age ta ghalesh baram karikatori budan,, age harkate saro daste amoom baram tu zaman mani peida mikard tu in vaze jadidam man tasviraro tu zaman mididam.. age ye frame dashtam birun ro negah mikardam ye ghesmatish marbut be alan bud, ye ghesmatayi tarik, ye ghesmatayi male 5 shish sanieye pish ye ghesmatayi marbut be ye do sanieye pish.. alan ke alane chiza ro doros nemibinam age saramo takun nadam ke az vaz birun biam....
donya ruey jalebi sho behem neshun midad
daram adame ba kelasi  misham
hameye harkata o negah ham tu dasto del baziyi az zaman zire nazare
az noktehash noghtehaye peivastegio tarikie. in ke ta hodoodi ctrl daram ke kodom ghesmato chan sanie ghablo bad bebinam....

۱۳۸۹ اردیبهشت ۱۸, شنبه

tu ruzaye be i khubeye avval e sal che ghad khodo terekudim, arzeshe khodemuno az bein bordim, arzehse hameye chizayi ke bar saremun raf o alan khdeomen o zadim ebe un rahi ke asan ademun nemiat

۱۳۸۹ اردیبهشت ۲, پنجشنبه

`avvalin guruhi hastim tu dona ke darim rush kar mikonim
neuroeconomics
decision making
tu yahoo
chizi ke az tush dar miat ham e darde idehaye poolsaz o job mikhore (age )ham resumeye khubi mishe
bacehah zohr gotan chi shdo doktor abbasiano tahvil gerefty dobare barashty
dige khodeshun midunan be khatere nomreye badi ke behem dad man unja ro bedrod gofte budam
emruzam chun daghighan jalaseye avalesh bud.
dr gof age betunin model sazie toarof ro bokonin ye chize khubia ztus dar miat chun faghat mokhatse iranias, belakhare ma ye cizi peida kardim ke ma mifahmim una nemifahman hammishe ke nabayad bar ax bashe

turn out kardim ke kheili complex e chun be kheili az hes ha bar migarde ::dard lezat tars etc.
hameye in nahie haye maghz dargir mishan ta tasmimgirie un sharayete sakht ro besazan
inja hameye chiza esme pezeshki darano esmasho intellgent ha tond tond migoftan, man  ama
yedunasham yadam namund,
kheili  gatishun nemisham,magar inke mese baghie raftar konim ba ham
tu dustim ba adama hes mikonam e parde hefz mishe ke hich chiz deepi etefagh nemiofte,momkene shukhi konim vali man taghriban faselaro miunam
man vakh nadaram vali harsal do se ta tavallodo miram yekish hamin mahmoude kalayiye ke emruz tu ye coffeshop surprisesh mikhan bokonan
bekhoda in raveshe zendegyi nabdu ke man mikhasam tu in modate kutah bokonam,az un facebookam gerefte ta in feshorde dars nakhundana
jobran mikonam