az in daf'e tup halam bad mishe.. omidvaram paye sohbat mogheyi ke mishinim dark koni ke man kollan az har chizi ke booye gozashte mide halam bad mishe... mkham dava konam az hame chi ham badam miat oghde daram, ehsase sar afkandegi mikonam, halam az zendegim be ham mikhore na rahe pish daram, na rahe pas be khodam fohs midam b ejayi ke hastam be inke in siahchal nemikhat tamoom she asiro zendaniam, mano donbale chizi midovoonanke hich vaght har kari konam, hatta age behtarin adame zamin ham basham,be in migan eshbae mazroof, nemiresam halam az hame chi beham mikhore az inke hatta nemitunam ye zare ba hese khub ba in hes ke mifahmam zendegimo, inke doosesh dashte basham tu hasratesham.. daghe delame oghdam shode halam az zendegim beham mikhore hasrate ye zendegie javoone addi ro khordan bayad tu atishe sham mese parvane besoozam baraye chizi ke hichisho nemifahmammm, hichisho ghabul nadaram mibinam ba kesi ke tarafame, hame chiz ruz be ruz badtar mishe hich vaght hich shansi nadaram baraye khalas shodan misery, filmesho didin? nevisandehe gire ye zane divoone miofte o pahasho mishkune barayeinke uno tark nakone ba hasrat be adam nega mikonam migamn, mikhandan, doos daran, bahashun hastam vali chizi jeloye ino mgire ke tu jameshun basham,man gereftare chizi shodam ke hatta nemitunam sare cherayish bahash harf bezanam gereftare kesi ke ghodrate takhayolesh, ghodrate eradash baraye taghyir dadane zendegi o talabidane un enghadr zaeefe,un tahe tahesh toro mese ye goroohe moorche ba zarre bin mibine,hatta age balbal bezani dasteto nemigire, in sadism e in bimarie! man har chi basham HICHVAGHT in nistam! hatta nemishe bahash harf zad, har juri razish koni un labkhande zeshtesho behet mizane o cheshato mibande , behet bihooshi mizane o toro mikhabune behet mavadi mide bokhori ke hatta nafahmi chi kar mikoni ta mikhay befahmi , hame chiz avaz m ishe, to gij mishi man zendegimo mikham tu in daneshahe koofti ,tu in donyaye kufti, hame ba hame dustan man parvane am asire tare ankabooti shode ke mikhat yek tane baraye baghie adad ro be armaghan biare,magnitude! na quality! baraye zendegie ayandeye khodesh, baraye filmnameye un amrikayiya na moshkelaye mano mibine, va na mikhat mano salemo khubo behtar bokone ayneye heshaye rangvarange masnooyi,saligh eo ghalam, mano mikhat mese kookayine sigar, mikhat baraye vaghtayi ke hoseleye neveshtan dare,hoseleye zendegi dare, mano gir andakhte, na rahe pas daram na rahe pish nemidune chie ke jeloye bazi chiza ro migire khodehso madari midoone vali mano nemibinem nemishnase ruz be ruz ba hamin etefagha chizayi ke hich vaght behesh fek nemikardam bishtar jelom vazeh mishan nemitunam,dige nemibinam,dige nemifahmam,delam shekaste, ghabul nadaram delam ye karte ghermez mikhat un khodesho mikhat , un ye ketabe mohayej mikhat, az hamoon sabkayi ke un nevisandee ke bud 18 hezar safhe , tulanitarin roman ro nevesh delesh mikaht injuri be zendegish eftekhar kone,ma tafahomemoon ro tu zibayi az dast dadim, delesh mikhat chizi bashe ke hichi nabashe chera man , akhe chera man? man ghalat kardam hala arezooye zendegie khodamo mikonam un budan ro enkar mikone khub midune chi be khordam bede ke hata zaboonam baz nashe sorfe, estefragh , kham shodan , nemikham uni basham ke un mikhat nemikham azash badam miat un ensan nis mese shekanje konandehaye jange aragh baraye gereftane akharin eghrar ha un zaboone mano be kesafathaye zendegi baz mikone hes mikonam hesi daram mese in ke baghie omramo bayad ru ye sandali beshinamo form por konam,halam bad mishe vaghty esme eshgh ro miare, hata ye abe khosh ham az galoom payin nemire rooz be rooz in kaboose un, zendegie un mikham beram birun,birun az donyaye siahsefidesh ...
hameye jahatgiriham az mogheyi ke az khab pa mishamdood,hameye roozhaye esti'salam dood, hameye zedegi ro sokkan kardan dood
chejur mitune donbale hes begarde
chejur mitune faghat tamashgar bashe, faghat bazi begire,ine dalil o falsafeyi k eposhte hameye talash hashe? chejur enghad khodkhah bashe
tu ye donyaye por az cherko nekbatim
tamoom she
khodaya man dige nemishnasamesh
khodaya un vazneye sangi dare,delaro sabok sangin mikone
dige hatta be amd nemikhaym ke paki vase ham neshun dade bashe
ganje shode por az harfayi ke tu khalvat zade shodano omidi be avaz kardaneshun nistesh
un hame saro karesh bahmoon peyi ye ke khoshk shode
bekesh birun refighe man
vase chi inja mik kari?
chera das az sare in kachale bakht bargashte bar nemidari?
man ye adamiam ke natunestam kheili az kararo bokonam untor ke bayad bokonam, hoosho hafezam dare bar bade fana mire, paye hamin zendegi ocheshaye nekbatbari ke daram
bayad ye jaye dige zendegio shuru konam
mikham yejayi basham ke hich ki mano nashnase, hichki ro man nashnasam
negahe ashenaye inayi ke inja didam nabashe
moadeleha, shenakhtha, lebasha ,mafhoomha, esteareha, zabanha ,az ghabl baste shode nabashe!
mikham beram yejayi ke kesi vase bala raftan tarsi nadashte bashe
vase bartarkardan tarsi nadashte bashe
dastesh tu daste kesi bashe ke mese khodesh bashe,gharib,sare por arezoo, yaaghi
delam mikhat jayi basham ke raftanha bishtare arzesh ro dashte bashan


delam mikhat jayi basham ke hozore adama tala bashe
mikham adama daghdaghashun baraye ham masire behtar kardaneshun bashe
jayi ke har harkat ya sokootishun baraye ham mani dashte bashe
jayi ke age cheshmato bebandi o gozashtaro faramoosh koni, sokootha o harkat ha barat mani dashte bashe
mikham jayi basham ke adamash tu ye keshvari gheir az khodeshun hozooreshun mani dare
jayi ke hzoore adma tu faza mani peida mikone, tu naghshi ke bayad begiran
jayi beine goftanha o nagoftanha,jayi por az hads haye nazade
jayi ke adamash donbale forsatan
adamash bekhan gushashuno baz konan baraye didane maharatha o surprise shodanha, jayi ke betuni khodeto faramoosh koni dobare
khabhaat dobare por az ma'na barat shan
ye chizi ro ruras bashim, budane man behtare ya nabudanam?
ta vaghty ma mitunim madare zayidane gheseha bashim na faghat ravishun baraye khodemoonjayi tuye anbare kaah , beine hamee chiza, be movazate faramooshi
tajere ettela'ate sangin bashim
maharat mikhata! inke information bekhario befroosh
fekre teami kar kardane in setunamo milarzunei
tamrin mikhata, khialeto baz kon bebin ta che damanehayi mitune roshd peida kone
age security chizie ke teami ham mishe behesh resid chera be fekresh nayoftim chera mizarim az das beran...


ettela'at chera nadare! tu donyayi por az ehsasim shamele hasoodie
faghat cheshmamoono baz konim
age mayike baraye behtar budan talash mikonim
kamtar az minimume motevaseti hastim ke tanhayi khod be khod uno bevojood miavord, kami takun bokhorim, kami tu mohasebatemun tu pishbini kardanha khodemoono tu jadeye digeyi bendazim
gharg shodan ro nashin negah kon
, vaghty azamat manish avaz she kalameha mani peida mikonan, inbar ham in kalameha nistanke mimoonan, chera ?tajrobe behet neshun nemide bayad donbale chize digeyi begardi?
kalame ha faghat baraye lahzeyi zadane jeraghe miano miran,
khial kardane zendegi kojast o marhale be marhale moyassar kardanesh kojas
gheir az ine ke yek sal az zendegit rahi bud baraye moyassar kardane ye zendegie vagheyi?
gheri azine ke hadafe hameye shaba o ruz ha residan be zaboonie ke az dastesh kar bar miat, na ,mibini vagheiat in ,ineke emruz gandidane uno shahedeshim?
forookhtane ettela'at
akhe chera be khodemoon?
chera kenare ham vaynasim o be ham khati nadim baraye inke beforsate hadafi tu jahan beresim
forookhtane ettela'at in maziato dare ke faghat maharate, maharti has ke to peshkelo mituni ebgheimate tala aab koni
kuchktarin idea ha arzeshe vagheyishuno peida mikonan,kenare ham gharar gereftane hamina e ke karaye bozorg mikone,yeki minvise az ye shabake o adamayi ke mikhan behesh nofooz konan, piruz shan, tahdidesh konan, yeki amniatesho check mikone ,information haro migam, yeki manage esh mikone
yeki be in khalgh shodanha manie ke mide
tarafe harchizi mishe raf,vaghty karemoon milestone haro peida kardan bashe, milestone baraye fath kardane ye shabakeye information ,unjas ke badesh khial haye jadid das beyeki kardaneshun meidun beheshun dade mishe, un vaghteke hameye marhalehaye erfaniyi ke ba ham behesh residim, fased nemishan,(shayad in fased shodane ke moghtazaye zamane!) jaye khodeshuno peida mikonan
harkari kardim bazam mikonim, besharte inke ba in az darun eshare kardan motevaghef nashim
be chize digeyi eshare konim
vaghty alan ravayat kardane zendegit shod mese dasstane lost, zendegihaye movazi
hala kari nadare ke be ham eshare kardano yad bedim
filmo akso maghale , in tajrobeye yek salo az che zaviehayi ke mishe did!
matne informationhayi ke beheshun eshare mikonim
az naghshehaye koochiko bozorge teamworking ha, managemanet ha shenakhtaneshun mishe shuru kard, ba esme ettela'at shuru mikonim, fariyate rah khod be khod ba'd ha pish mian
chanalise kardane ke ghesmate dasht kardaneshe
zaboonam ghasere, faghat esme halaro in miziram zendegiyi ke tu rudarvasie kardaneshamo gahi mano be tng miare
fek mikonam be tang avordan arzeshmandtarin ghesmate in zedegi bashe, motmaenam age befahmim jediatesho uno tore digeyi jobranesh mikonim

واقعا برات خوشحالم..برات آرزو می کردم که این خدایی که من به وجوش توی تو ایمان داشتمو تو اینجا آوردیش... و همونی که تا چندی پیش روزهایی گمش کردی..همونی که همن روز هایی که نمی تونستم نفی کردنش رو از بین بردنش رو با تو نحمل کنم.. از همون روز هایی که حس کردم باهات بیگانه شدم... از روزی که هنوز توی دلمه... که کسی من رو همزاد خودش می دونه و این طور نابود می کنه... واقعا خوشحالم که تو این خدا ررو پیدا گردی می بینیش!.. که لکه ی کسی رو تو ذهنت نداری .. کسی که این قدر از تو می خوات بهش ایمان داشته باشی که همه ی سیاه مشق هایی که نمی خواستم جواب بدم رو تموم کنی... واقعا آرزو می کنم بمانی که مثه من مجبور نیستی از خدایی که داری جلوی دیگری خجالت بکشی... تو تناقض باشی...تنها ...تنها..تنهای تنها نباشی برات آرزوو می کنم که این بلاها سر خدای تو نیان.. خدایی که هر چی باشه نشون دادی که حد اقل به اصلی ترین رکنهاش پایبند موند... که با وجود همه ی کثافت هایی که چشم ها ی کاملا بازش تو دنیا دیدن... ایمان به اون چیزی فراتر از یه مشق ذهنیه..چیزی که لوح سراپا تمیز ذهن تو ..عشق رو می بینه و تو این کارزار گاهی می مونه.. مجبور می شه فراموشش کنه و به خودش بگه هیج کی کامل نیس.. بذا باشه.. یه بار به جای همه ی اون ها چیزی کم نمی کنه.... ذهنی که من از تو دیدم گاهی مملو از توجیح بود ...تو همیشه وقتی سفیدی رو می بینی خدا باهاته ... ذهن من مملو از توجیح شد...کمتر و کمتر با خدای خودم خلوت کردم و موندم و سعی کردم به خودم بقبولونم که می شه چشم های کاملا باز .. دست های سراسر رنگ کرد و باز خدا رو بشه با دیدن کوچکترین روزنه ای ببینه. بهت تبریک می گم که تمومش کردی ...برامون خوشجالم که حد اقل جلوی این فاجعه ی کشتار بشری رو گرفتین بدرود دوست من... چیزی فراتر از احساس اینجا لازمه بدرود...

ras mige...  otagh anha bud, sagharo  elnaz umade budan khodahafezi konan, az tu chamana barmigashtim rasty safheye pulp fiction jelom baz bud, goftam miduni male kie? ghablesh tu pat o math ke dashtim ba kusha o siavosh zabuun mikhordim o jaleb ine ke una khabar dashtan ke darse bahar tamoom shode, surprise shodam ke nemidunestam
lecture ro tu chamana dadim sangin bud, das gozashtan rush , faghat saghar fahmid ye chizayi ...bahs mikardim , ke elle belle un migof nataayej age chan bodi beshe momkene bar ax bshe, goftam masaleyi peida mikonim ke docharesh nashe ... behesh goftam fek mikonam nemiduni chi migi unam moaddabane javabamo be khodam bar gardund bargashtim tu sakhtemun tu otagh, una raftan, hamasho vase abbasian goftam, ....lecture e man system dynamics ro barash goftam chie chejuri kar mikone, var raftim, charand gof, harf bargardund hamishe haminjurie ba chizaye taze, bahso avaz kard, gof miduni chan vaghte miay inja o hanuz ru hichi sabet fix nakardi, na inayik emigi ye chizi ke na faghat ye hafte o do hate o ye maho chan mah bashe...zad tu khatesh goft in chiza be darde to nemikhore.. sagahro elnaz do ta projeye dige ham daran bahash hamoon chizaye maskhareo routiine  khaste konande kar mikonan unayi ke ye omr miran mishan paperi ke hich ki hata hosele nemikone varagheshu bezane, gof ru atte tion kar kon, yade sobh oftadam midunestim hamamoon ke he pianiste herfeyiye ba yeki az angoshtash ruye sinash az bala be payin zarn miavord ba yeki dige az angoshtash az oayin be bala orib micharkhund... angoshtash, angoshtasho mese ghshoghe chayi khori ham zad gof in zehne to e kejavuni neshat dari energy dari vali fek mikoni ta keye asibi ke dari bekhodet mizani hamishe in juri nis,, salaye digeyi ham has angoshtesho gahrgh kard gof attention ro begir tu neuroscience , chizi ke khodet ye maharaty peida koni, bekhodet komak koni, moshkelate tahsili  hame chi, mitunestam behet beam sare mah bia result bede vali midunam mikham beine bache ha bashi,,,,ye lahze bargh zad, na kar kar kardan tu field di garun, ye fielde noyi sakhtan , barghesh parid, be khkodam fek kardam, man daram khodamo nabud mikonam, bis bar telephone vasate harfam bahas zag khord 11 miss call baz kardam , beresun khodeto cuzine ham mikhastan beran democracy tu ruze rowshan, neshatam be moghe kenareshun hatta zudtar, khoshal budam ke hafashuno majbur nistam gush bedam, hame chi , dobare film, yade khun bazi oftadam, az un filmas ke bishtar az 4-5 bar biamo negash konam, system dynamics, hameye tasvira khalaghiat ha secnas ebadi az kojaye badane ki shuru beshe, in azadie bi hado marzi ke senarioeye in film dasht yade  hameye bado birah hayi oftadam ke abbasuan rajebe in ha gof rajebein field rajebe khalaghiat, rajebe ahamiate tamarkozam.... hame raftan, faghat mano ye zowje javun munde budim, akharin nafar salono tark kardim miram khune, ye kalame ham harf nemizanam bahash, mikhunam, mikhunam chi neveshtam, chi neveshyte, chi kar kardam chi kar karde,,, mikham beresunamet.. soonamet.. soonamet
khate yek cheshma labkhanda maks ha helale lab ha  aramesh, reflex ,bi gharari ha
chizi tahe shenakhtame, ye hese delpazire kashf, ye hese bache munde, chizi kebehesh kamel naresidam chizi ke peidash karda, se char sale pish tu bozorg shodan, mikham onsoresho hazf konam, mikham vazne delpaziresho bendazam ru khate yek, chizi ke gom shodetu un amaghe door... in badane mane saghf

bavaram nemishe!! chizzi kee cheshmam daran mibinano bavar nemikonam
az sade shuru shod
eemruz asr
amoom ke az canda bargashte budo tu ashpazkhube mididam
ye frame hayyi az zaman por noor budan  o ye frame hayi tarik mishodan
yani ye lahzehayi mitunestam donya ro bebinam
beine sargije o saboki o sangini bud saram
harfayi ke mizadan kheili khabaludam kard
 raftam birun az ashpazkhune
vaghty bargashtam didam harfashuno nemifahmam
bazvarede yeki az hamoon period haye gijgulim shode bdamo fohsh midadam  man nemitunam be in vaziat edame bedam
saramo seft negah dashtam ta betunam az pasesh bar biam
 khodahafezi o ina
vared mashin ke shodam hanooz saram gij mizad o ye chan ta chizam az dastam oftad zamino ina
vali vaghty tu khiabun ba mashin i ke maman ranandegi mikard harkat mikardam donya ajib shod... vagehan ajib
in tajrobe bar migasht be 4-5 sle pish , hamoon moghehayi ke hale badamo mikhastam handle konam
tasavir age ta ghalesh baram karikatori budan,, age harkate saro daste amoom baram tu zaman mani peida mikard tu in vaze jadidam man tasviraro tu zaman mididam.. age ye frame dashtam birun ro negah mikardam ye ghesmatish marbut be alan bud, ye ghesmatayi tarik, ye ghesmatayi male 5 shish sanieye pish ye ghesmatayi marbut be ye do sanieye pish.. alan ke alane chiza ro doros nemibinam age saramo takun nadam ke az vaz birun biam....
donya ruey jalebi sho behem neshun midad
daram adame ba kelasi  misham
hameye harkata o negah ham tu dasto del baziyi az zaman zire nazare
az noktehash noghtehaye peivastegio tarikie. in ke ta hodoodi ctrl daram ke kodom ghesmato chan sanie ghablo bad bebinam....

tu ruzaye be i khubeye avval e sal che ghad khodo terekudim, arzeshe khodemuno az bein bordim, arzehse hameye chizayi ke bar saremun raf o alan khdeomen o zadim ebe un rahi ke asan ademun nemiat

`avvalin guruhi hastim tu dona ke darim rush kar mikonim
neuroeconomics
decision making
tu yahoo
chizi ke az tush dar miat ham e darde idehaye poolsaz o job mikhore (age )ham resumeye khubi mishe
bacehah zohr gotan chi shdo doktor abbasiano tahvil gerefty dobare barashty
dige khodeshun midunan be khatere nomreye badi ke behem dad man unja ro bedrod gofte budam
emruzam chun daghighan jalaseye avalesh bud.
dr gof age betunin model sazie toarof ro bokonin ye chize khubia ztus dar miat chun faghat mokhatse iranias, belakhare ma ye cizi peida kardim ke ma mifahmim una nemifahman hammishe ke nabayad bar ax bashe

turn out kardim ke kheili complex e chun be kheili az hes ha bar migarde ::dard lezat tars etc.
hameye in nahie haye maghz dargir mishan ta tasmimgirie un sharayete sakht ro besazan
inja hameye chiza esme pezeshki darano esmasho intellgent ha tond tond migoftan, man  ama
yedunasham yadam namund,
kheili  gatishun nemisham,magar inke mese baghie raftar konim ba ham
tu dustim ba adama hes mikonam e parde hefz mishe ke hich chiz deepi etefagh nemiofte,momkene shukhi konim vali man taghriban faselaro miunam
man vakh nadaram vali harsal do se ta tavallodo miram yekish hamin mahmoude kalayiye ke emruz tu ye coffeshop surprisesh mikhan bokonan
bekhoda in raveshe zendegyi nabdu ke man mikhasam tu in modate kutah bokonam,az un facebookam gerefte ta in feshorde dars nakhundana
jobran mikonam

dadasham diruz dame dare masjed didam , khodesh umad bem salam kard, halamo porsid,nemidunam chera ye gahme kahsi tu negash bud.
bazi bacheha azam shirinii mikhan, dige nemidunam chi kar konam!
yebaram zohr didamesh az dur sari labkhand zadam un dastesho bala ovord dash ba yeki harf mizad man labkhandma pak shod  un ada dar avord ke engar ba dastesh dare ghazie ro towzih mide, khaste bud!

maman zang zade gofte zang zade behem gofte bayd beri pishehsh, bavar nadari az babat bepors
raftam pishesh migam mikhatin mano bebinin, aberuhasho t ham kard gof na, monshish gof ma zang zade bashim shukhi mikoni, goftam az in harfaye bi mazweye mamane , zang zad dobare , dashtam harf mizadam ba yeki az dustaye ghadim eid didani etefaghan mgof khsohalo sar zende shodio chehrato gahlan khaste budio adadetam bala e,va inke khandeham tu harf zadan ba to asanam alaki niso vaeghan khoshal misham ke bhat harf mizanamo takid hatta bade khodafezi khodesh.mamangof dar morede etefaghaye eid ma hichi behesh nagoftim khodesh shuru kard be sohbat kardan, bavar kon, boro pisehs bebin chi mige..
mishinamo pamo ru pam mindazamo be neveshtehaye  daro divare un kharabe fohsh midam,dare ba hamkaresh harf mizane, nowbate mann mishe, shuru mikonam be sohbat kardan.. agahye doktor dige khabari az un visionha nis, dige kheili kamrang shode mahv shodanam ke yeja ro nega konamo nadunam chi migzare dowram,ghablan zendegio chia ro un tori ke mikhatam darunam bashe mididam vali alan ba ye standardi az birun va mohite atraf untor ke has mibinam
tu eid ye karayi kardam chan ruz ghors nakhordamo sardardo be ye nazmi residam tu zehnam kheili behtaram nemidunam ina ro begam behetun chun hich khatereye khoshi nadaram az harkataye gheire addi mo tarif kardan baraye shoma.ye quiz dadam bad nashode dige dars ke mikhunam zaheran in ruza ke chizi az eid nemigzare mahve ye safhe nemisham  maslan nim sa'at ,,vaze terme gahblamo porsid...
ghorsam avaz shode bade una behtar shode vazam , dige khabam tulani nisto be kelasam miresam vase inek behesh etemad bedam ke fekram monsajeme edame midadam baz be harf zadan sedam gahi milarzid
yejayi rajebe ghesehaye amme pasand harf mizanimm,unja vaghean komak  kard , mese ye sathe balayi bud ke man majbur budam khodamo bahash vefgh bedam, ina budan ke fek mikonam dowreye darmane man sari tar dare pish mire
mardiek maloome asabesh khurde ke dahan kaji besh kardim o raftam pishe un doktor bahale,gof be har hal mna nazaram ine ke
agoftam akhe chera? mese halgheye ye dowreye darmaniye ,bedune un to tu ye cycle miofti ye cycle e mayub momkene bazi alayemet hazf hode bashe vali to be basirat naresidi rajeb bimarit
migam basirat ine ke man be ye marhaleyi beresam ke shoma bebininn bad khodamo ba baghieye adamye addi match konam o mese una besham?
akhe ozgal man harchi migam harkari mikonam harhci addi basham to mikhay yechi begi man ch efarghi ba baghieye bachehaye inja mikonam,bacheha ham midunan
ino be un darmangare avaletam begu begu folaniyi has ke mige bastari lazeme
inke ruzi 5 - 6  sa'at ba yeki harf bezani are gheire tabiyiye goftam na inke khialo khalaghiato un alayem...

ye ghotbnama tu gardan e mohamad bud shabihe johny depp ,baghal ke kardim hamo nim ruz azash amanat gereftam alan tu gardane daram miram ipm.

bad tu rah ke dase jamyi unja budim yeki gof man harchi besh goftam bem bede nadad, maram gozashte vasam labod

mp3 playere yeki az dokhtara ro ham ba male khodam exchange kardam daram gush midam

khob ishalla ke jalaseye emruz gaame bozorgi dar rastaye tahaghoghe hoghughe bashariat anjam dade bashe.. agahi be amal miresanad ke ba aghahe ye sa'at harf zadam eltemas kardam bab eide in tanha forsate mosalame emsalame(hameye eid ahd bastam dars bekhunama sob ta shab)ke ye chizi ro be man bege.. bade 6 jalase taze didam mitune harfam bezanegheire abrush,kheili dige be abrush tike andakhtam ke razi shod.. mam umad tu 75 daghighe harf zad bash , bad man umadam.. hey migoftam duseshun daram khanevadamo,mohabatamo ham ebraz mikonam modam in avakher beshun,yaru fahmid man kine be ham zadam, az siasatashun.. az in tu sar zadanashun az fohshashun...az kur kardanayeb man,man ye monji budam  ham bayad haghe adamaye invare donya ro migereftam tu in vaghte kami ke dashtam ham adamaye mazloome un vare donya ro... bar faraze oghyanuse aaraam sabok baal..albate gahi ertefamo ba sathe darya digitali tanzim mikardamo ding ,dobare sobok baal... man faraz mikardam..ye
khob porsid chete ke heset bade..manam goftam ina.. yaru ham gof boro bandeye khoda moshkel dari,bia komak kon be khodet hallesh koni
biarid kaghaz biarid man eghrar mikonam... eteraf mikonam.. emza mikonam:))
 hala miram shiraz alal hesab.. baba hameye barnameha ghjarashmishe man internet nadaram unja eine adam ..ey vay negaam kard! rum siah

emruz zohr daneshgah jalaseye 22 khordad ta 22 bahman bud, otaghe kuchik monteha elayh nafari ke tush ja mishodo chapunde budan, daro ke baz kardam step gozasham hads bezan ki ye metr un taraf tar ru zamin neshaste bud
hala manam ke ye modate tulaniyie in shaba khabesho mibinam o kollan harkio mibinam fek mikonam shabiheshe khodamo vase in sharayet nemidunestam chi kar konam, deo zadam be darya nafare jeloyimo pas zadam tamam ghad jelo agha vaysadam.. dige hey negahe sheitanataioo labkhando ina bud ke ghayemaki hesesh beine ma rado badal mishod,man hey baghalisho negah mikardamo ba kahnde saramo micharkhundamo unam siahie cheshash mioftad tu ofoghe mano puzkhand ghoncheyi mizad.
face to face nashodim'
mogheye tarke otagh bahal bud.. kheili ghashang be refigehsh az posht  gof bro bro daste doshmaniyi
nadasht
bahal bud.. hesamun shabihe ham bud

 bacheye tu del boroyiye va badrahat talab,vel bud ru divar .hamasham khabesh miumad:)) mikhas bege movafeaghm ya bisar, vasate harfe mardom
akharesham hame narazi az harfaye mozakhrafi ke mizadan raftim birun.... gemun nakonam dige bebinamesh,bas bud didari taze shod hala ki biat in hame ashtikonoon in vasata beine adama rah bendaze

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mokhatabesh ashena nis, bekhatre hamin ba ye zabune dige gofte..ziadi chert gofte

sa'ate dahonim (zudtar az hamishe )residam ipm,doktor kheili labkhande garmi mese hamsihe tahvilat midahad va to gusheyi mineshini sohbat dar morede paradxe pishnahad be adamhast , age 89 percent 10melyun dolar giret biat, age 10 darsad 5 melyun dolar giret biat o agar 1 darsad hichi giret nayat ro tarjih midi ya inke kolan 6 meyun dolar giret biat, (adadayi tu in mayeha)va inke adama che tasmimi migaran ba ye azmayeshe dige ke unam adadash yekam bala o payine o barkhorde adama cheghad ajib gharib mishe sare hamin masale, sohbat mirese be gahchaghe azaye badan o inke ye babayi kolie az jahane sevom migeref ye dune az har adami o miraf una ro a ye safar tu amrica migardundo ye melyun dolar midad beheshun, taraf mohtaramo kishish bude o ade chan sal migiranesho ba vakil azadesh mikonan,va in soal pish miat ke in kar asan ensanie?inke befrushi ozveto, ba ta'ajob migoftan tu iran mikonan
ra giri shod ke shoma chi migino az lahaze ghanuni moshkel daran ke chi karesh konan... az tak take adama porsid, asan az avvale jalase mogheye soohbatash hamaro negah mikard vali gardanehso nemicharkhund ye nim negahi be manbendaze bebine ,hers mikhordam ke bekhatere hich fa'aliate tahghighaty kardaname ya chi...ye chan sanie bad goftam doktor abasian inke migid az lahaze ghanuni moshkel dare ro mishe injuri aadelanash kard,inke befahmim un nerkhe foroosh che ghad bashe daghighan, mitunim ye noghteye ta'adole nash barash benvisim,ba do ta parametr yeki miangine omre zendegi kardan, yeki arzeshe malie yek sal bedune kolie zendegi kardan.... injuri in dota parametr be ham marbutan ke harkas momkene ba che ehtemali ta payane omresh ba ye kolie zendegi kone be surate tasaodi va cheghad payin miare va inke un pul chand sal tu behtarin halat baese afzayeshe omresh mishe az lahaze ejtemayi darhar sal inha ro darnazar migirim....noghteye ta'adole pareto ya nashesh ro dar miarim
khob alhamdolellah dige doktor az man badesh cheshm bakhshesh nemudo,o mogheye bi projegi ke akhare kar dasht vase baghieye bacheha group bandishun mikard baraye fa'aliat az 3 ta projeyi ke pishnahad kard yekish hamini bud ke man goftam vase computeria...asn mano joze adam hesab nemikone, asan tanha adami ke naporsido nagoft koja fa'aliat mikonin man budam
be tak take bachehaye kelas dare gushi keshundam kenaro goftam untaze varede shabihe ronaldinhoe  makhsusan ba un dandunash,khanome folani shoke shode bud ke man mikham chi behesh begam hala
bad ke masire bargashtemun yeki shod, dobar behesh goftamke pezeshkaye ronaldinho elam karde budan raze movafaghiate dinio tu dandunashe, 1.5 barabare adame adi hava tuye shoshash injuri mikesheo injuri bodove,to ham bayad unjuri beshi hamun potansiel ro dari bad az har dari sokhan rundim khandidim taghriban abvabe musighi ro be rum baz kard,manam say kardam ershadesh konam az in hadafe sarbehavayish tu bozorgtarin enghelabe ayandeye hushe masnuyi
ps:dastam milarze.... nemidunam key khub mishan,un dafe chan hafte pish dashtam tu ipm nazaramo migoftam tamame tanam milarzid, hamina ro dide dige

ba azade o soroor raftam teatre...ye fekrayi mikonam, man eyne adame normal zendegi nemikonam,shayad vaghean mishe tu in sharayet ,man hanzu yad ngereftam,ba prado umad donbalemun, do sal migzare un mogheha to taze rafte budi ,yade man oftade budo gahrar set kard,farghamo ba do sal pish ke migof :to hanuz mikhay motefavet beshi, hersam migire chun man johare zendegimo kheili vaghte tu khodam khoshk kardam, hameye unjahayi ke mikhastam basham,hamye chizayi ke mididam,hameye passion am, vasate teatr fek mikardam ke gurkhuneye yevarie ma chi mitalabe,cheghad jahaye pishraft dare o alan che bi ostokhune,valibazam zendegi mano enghadr tahrik nemikone, hasrat az hameye jahayi ke dus dashtam tanhayi durbino begiram dastamo beram,vali ba in nane babayi ke daramo in barnameye zendegi o in noghte tamarkozaye zomokht be hichi nemiresam...
vasataye zamani ke ba ham budim man halam bad shod nemidunestam chejuri die edaame bedam, tik zadaneshun bud,yeho goftam hosele nadaram halam khubnis ruye sandaliaye coffeshope cafe honarmandan....raftam bilit bekharam avvalesh una ham dota duste junjuni tond tond harfo ragbar mizadan,soroor shansi duste khunevadegie mahe,az inke akhare kar faghat check koni bebinikhodet khub barkhord kardi khosham nemiat, ina bachehae pezeshki hamashun yadeshune, yadeshe do sal pish ke man bahash raftam birun dar morede adami ke mogheyi ke bahse ezdevajesh ba sorooro pish keshundam,soroor faghat gof iradesh- velkharjishe,na tanforooshi, avazesh bamarame-nemishnase chi gofte budam,man rabetam ba uno kheili vakht pish cut karde budam bekhatere akhlaghiatesh, gof tu in modat ye doospesare bi azar gerfte bude,ke in harkari mikhaste mikarde o oonamnemituneste chizi bege chun ozreshomikhaste, ah adama che ghad gand bazi dar miaran gahi.... man vaghean age fek mikone dus pesare bi azare kesi hastam ta hamin alan kalako ,bekanam shayadam bad baraye khodam hallo fasl kardam ke kare ye nafaram
manan avaz shodam, ki gofte man cheshcharuni nemikonam,az inke mese ghabl be marhaleyi nemitunam beresam  hameye ehsasamo be ye nafar tu negam bayan konam khastam shode....khodkoshe gharibparvar,tuye galume
nemidunam inchizaro nabayad moghyi ke ba ye nafar rabete dari behesh begi
yad e azade mioftam ke khodesho pokhte neshun dade bud emruz, hanuzam vase ye piche dor zadan mamnoo az andakhtane rusarish maye mizare ta mashne poshti vayse, sooroor behesh mige tanforooshi mikoni, soroor khube sigar mikeshe o alkol mikhore , kam kam ideal haye zendegim dare alaki avaz mishe
 az bas jomlehamo tu bare dovom edit mikonam emruz ke rafte budam 17 dey baraye bare dovom untoria dialog-bahre nashodam,modatis dige ba tamame shoor donbal nemikonam hameye manihayi ke film midad,bade soroor gapi zadim rajebe khodemun ,gharar shod bi marefati dar nayaram baraye bare bad,ba ham mano ta dame khune resund
bazam khune...khuneye mozakhrafe man

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